SOURCE-"i used google for it,and visited from many articles.after that i wrote this.

MEANING of JAN-GAN-MAN

Many people think that India's national anthem was written by Rabindranath Tagore in honour of King George V and the Queen of England when they visited India in 1919.  Infact it was first sung at the Calcutta Session of the Indian National Congress on 27 December 1911 but it was never meant to honour any king or queen (though their sycophant may have given them a english version suited to their feeders).

Tagore’s poem (which was later adopted as National Anthem) indicates actual thinking and mentality of Indian People

Read Carefully this poem Again. I have translated it to English also

"Jan Gan Man Adhinayak Jai He"
( I Pray the leader who is leaving and rule in the mind of common and urban people )
--- Here Tagore indicate not only to the prime power but to the Most popular and ancient kings of India Like Ram who are still in Indian peoples thinking.

"Bharat Bhagya Vidhata"
( Builder of Indian future )
--- No any poet of India can give so much respect to any of emperor that he is builder of future of any country. It can only be the prime power i.e God.


"Tav shubh name jage
tav shubh ashish mange
gahe tav jay gatha"

( We wake up at morning by remembering your name,
We want your order to do any work,
We sing ur stories)

--- Now this is common habit of an Indian people at early morning that each Indian remember his/ her Mother and father, respected persons and God. Never did any Indian remembered British ruler at morning even in pre independence era. We have always sought blessings of God and "tav shubh ashish mange " indicate this opinion.

"gahe tav jai gatha "
indicates common habit of Indian that they pray to God by singing and remembering his ascent stories like Geeta and Ramayan.

" Jai he Jai he Jai he
Jai Jai Jai Jai he"

This also is an Indian Aarti rule that at the end of Aarti, people call Jai-jaiKar at loud volume.
Jai he Jai he and Jai he is "Victory, Victory, Victory to India".And he here represents Hind i.e India
It could not mean to pay tribute to any Britisher in any way.

On 10 November 1937 Tagore wrote a letter to Mr Pulin Bihari Sen about the controversy. That letter in Bengali can be found in Tagore's biography Ravindrajivani, volume II page 339 by Prabhatkumar Mukherjee.
"A certain high official in His Majesty's service, who was also my friend, had requested that I write a song of felicitation towards the Emperor. The request simply amazed me. It caused a great stir in my heart. In response to that great mental turmoil, I pronounced the victory in Jana Gana Mana of that Bhagya Vidhata [ed. God of Destiny] of India who has from age after age held steadfast the reins of India's chariot through rise and fall, through the straight path and the curved. That Lord of Destiny, that Reader of the Collective Mind of India, that Perennial Guide, could never be George V, George VI, or any other George. Even my official friend understood this about the song. After all, even if his admiration for the crown was excessive, he was not lacking in simple common sense."

Again in his letter of 19 March 1939 Tagore writes,
"I should only insult myself if I cared to answer those who consider me capable of such unbounded stupidity as to sing in praise of George the Fourth or George the Fifth as the Eternal Charioteer leading the pilgrims on their journey through countless ages of the timeless history of mankind." (Purvasa, Phalgun, 1354, p738.)

Moreover, Tagore was hailed as a patriot who wrote other songs too apart from "Jana gana Mana" lionizing the Indian independence movement.He renounced his knighthood in protest against the 1919 Jallianwala Bagh Massacre. The Knighthood i.e. the title of 'Sir' was conferred on him by the same King George V after receiving the Nobel Prize in Literature for "Gitanjali" from the government of Sweden. Two of Tagore's more politically charged compositions, "Chitto Jetha Bhayshunyo" ("Where the Mind is Without Fear" :Gitanjali Poem#35) and "Ekla Chalo Re" ("If They Answer Not to Thy Call, Walk Alone"), gained mass appeal, with the latter favoured by Gandhiji and Netaji.

So to hell with the translation given at Wikipedia, I think it’s the feeling for own mother land that actually matters and if the feeling is not there no poem/national anthem can invoke that in you.

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Today has been a horrific day for me after reading into the details of the barbaric gang rape in our national capital. There can be no plausible explanations for this loathsome act and all ludicrous justifications that the society has been giving to rapes is not applicable here. The victim was not alone, she was not wearing provocative clothes, she was not out at midnight and she was not in a shady or dark corners of the city. She, a medical student, was returning from a movie at 9:15 pm with a friend (like you and me would on any normal day), when those six monsters wretched her pleasant evening.

Its been long since we have been condemning the immoral and patriarchal society we live in, is the cause of all these rapes, which needs a complete reform in the mentality of our society. But cultivating those moral values and that respect for women might take years or decades, meanwhile, you or me cannot let our friends, sisters, wife or neighbors walk into these fearsome streets of this country.

So what should we do? Lock them/yourself up in rooms and ban the women on streets. Not at all. Let us help equip every women, we know, with some basic self defense techniques. 

Before listing down few points for self defense I thought of listing down all the rapes that has occurred in this country and have appeared in the prominent newspaper during this month. This will entice anger among my female friends, which is necessary to keep up the motivation for practicing these steps.

18th Dec: TODAY

17th Dec: A 17-year-old, who set herself on fire after being raped a few days ago in Nashik by a relative, died at a civil hospital with 70 per cent burns, the police said on Sunday.

16th Dec: A 13-year-old girl was gang-raped allegedly by four persons at Kambalapadu, near Podili in Prakasam district in the wee hours of Saturday.

14th Dec: A 13-year-old boy has been arrested for allegedly raping an 11-year-old mentally disabled girl in a village in Sindagi taluk.

13th Dec: In a shocking incident, a man who persuaded his family friends in Malligehalli in Hassan district to send their four-year-old daughter with him to get her treated for an injured leg, has raped and savaged the child.

10th Dec: The Mumbai police on Sunday arrested a 42-year-old man for allegedly raping a 62-year-old woman at her home in the Marol area in a western suburb of Mumbai.

9th Dec: In yet another shocking indicator to the moral degeneration of society, the police have registered a case against a man on the charges of molesting his six-year-old daughter after giving her alcohol.

8th Dec: A young Rwandan national was allegedly gang-raped by four persons at Timarpur in North Delhi on December 3.

7th Dec: In a case where a 17-year-old domestic maid was repeatedly raped leading to her getting pregnant and delivering a baby boy at the office of a placement agency in Shakurpur in North-West Delhi after which the infant was sold by the agency owners to a social worker for Rs.23,000....

6th Dec: A 21-year-old youth was sentenced to 10 years’ rigorous imprisonment for raping a minor girl in 2010.

6th Dec: A 70-year-old woman was raped by a young relative at Budhakhera village in Haryana.

5th Dec: The police said the four-year-old had been sexually assaulted for many days but it came to light only when she came home crying on Monday.

5th Dec: A partially paralysed man has been sentenced to five years in jail by a Delhi court for attempting to rape an intellectually and physically challenged minor girl.

5th Dec: A rape accused’s bid to escape the law by faking his death and furnishing a false certificate before the court has been foiled with his arrest two years later.

4th Dec: A 15-year-old tribal girl was allegedly gangraped in Raigarh district of Chhattisgarh and nine persons, including two minor boys, were arrested in this case, police said on Monday.

3rd Dec: A five-year-old girl was allegedly raped by a temple priest in Mangolpuri here two days ago.According to the police, the victim had gone to a temple close to her house.

3rd Dec: A youth has been sentenced to two years in jail by a Delhi court for kidnapping and molesting his minor cousin after confining her in a room for seven days.

1st Dec: Two young men accused of gang-rape of a married woman from a Scheduled Caste allegedly committed suicide in the early hours of Friday by jumping in front of a moving train on the Rohtak-Delhi railway track near Kanheli village in Haryana, said the police.

Imagine, the above list includes only the list of incidents that appeared in Hindu newspaper (Hindu Link). From this we can make out the magnitude of such cases happening all over the country when most of them are not even registered.

Though I am no self defense expert, I have googled and tried to compile an exhaustive list of what women can do at the minimal to try prevent themselves from such incidents.

1. Awareness. The first, and probably most important, component in self-defence is awareness: awareness of yourself, your surroundings, and your potential attacker’s likely strategies. Be ready with exit strategy. 
2. Use your sixth sense. “Sixth sense.” “Gut instinct.” Whatever you call it, your intuition is a powerful subconscious insight into situations and people. All of us have this gift, but very few of us pay attention to it. Learn to trust this power and use it to your full advantage. Avoid a person or a situation which does not “feel” safe–you’re probably right.
3. Plan in advance. If you're going out to party on night, make a plan with your friends. Know ahead of time where you're meeting and whether you're all leaving together. Look out for one another and be up front about what you're hoping to get out of the night.
4. Set your own boundaries (whatever they may be) and be prepared to defend them. So say you're dressed "racy" or like Pretty Women pre-Rodeo Drive. Whatever! You do you, girl! But say someone sees that as a license to do something you don't like or don't want. Use a strong voice and body language to make your boundaries clear. Know that it's all about attitude, rather than clothing, when it comes to protecting yourself. Give you (and your "unwanted admirer") an out by making an excuse to get out of the situation, such as needing to find your friend or whatever. If he can't take the hint, a clear "no" or "back-off" will likely work.
5. Yell. If you are in a crowded place like bus or train being eve teased or touched inappropriately, shout. Don't be shy of what others will think, there will sure be someone out of so many people to help you out.
6. Escape. Always your best option. What if the unthinkable happens? You are suddenly confronted by a predator who demands that you go with him–be it in a car, or into an alley, or a building. It would seem prudent to obey, but you must never leave the primary crime scene. You are far more likely to be killed or seriously injured if you go with the predator than if you run away (even if he promises not to hurt you). Run away, yell for help, throw a rock through a store or car window–do whatever you can to attract attention. And if the criminal is after your purse or other material items, throw them one way while you run the other.
7. Use your elbow. Elbow is the strongest part of your body. Keep it in front of your body while walking in crowded places.
8. Pepper spray. Pepper spray, like other self-defence aids, can be a useful tool. Red chilli powder can be used as a substitute to this. (currently its not available on flipkart, but hope it is soon)
9. Right to fight. Unfortunately, no matter how diligently we practice awareness and avoidance techniques, we may find ourselves in a physical confrontation. Whether or not you have self-defence training, and no matter what your age or physical condition, it is important to understand that you CAN and SHOULD defend yourself physically. You have both the moral and legal right to do so, even if the attacker is only threatening you and hasn’t struck first. Many women worry that they will anger the attacker and get hurt worse if they defend themselves, but statistics clearly show that your odds of survival are far greater if you do fight back. Keep a stick in your purse. Aim for the eyes first and the groin second. Remember, though, to use the element of surprise to your advantage–strike quickly, and mean business. You may only get one chance.
10. Home invasions. A crime on the rise. The primary way to prevent a home invasion is simply to never, ever open your door unless you either are certain you know who’s on the other side or can verify that they have a legitimate reason for being there (dressing up as a repair person or even police officer is one trick criminals use)
    
    Follow these things...!
    Thanks...
    Pankaj Gangwar

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Yann Martel's Booker Prize winning book, Life of Pi has been transformed beautifully into celluloid by Ang Lee ofCrouching Tiger Hidden Dragon and Brokeback Mountain fame.

It's a story of the protagonist Pi's magical journey on a lifeboat with Richard Parker, a Royal Bengal Tiger for company and in the process discovering himself, faith and God.

A captivating story with many dimensions and visually stunning, the movie leaves you engrossed till the end and has also got high ratings from both the critics and audience.

There are also some great lessons in life and business, that one
can learn from Life Of Pi.
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1. ❝If you believe in everything, you'll end up not believing in anything at all❞

In the film, Pi's father Santosh Patel told this to Pi at the dining table, when he was getting inquisitive about different religions and wanted to follow all of them at the same time.

His words hold true, not only for religion, but are also valid for our daily life and business.

It's difficult to follow different paths at the same time, as many of them are conflicting in nature and often create confusion and make it difficult to stay focused and at times, lead to wastage of crucial resources.

As an entrepreneur, it's also important to choose your mentors, guides wisely.

Listening to all sorts of advice will harm your chances and cause delay in reaching your end goal. As with faith and advisors in life, entrepreneurs must be careful in choosing their business model and target group.

In early days, when an entrepreneur is trying to establish his business, it's important to prioritise and decide on whether you're targeting SME's or Large Enterprises or you're operating in B2B or B2C segment for the matter.

Pursuing divergent and often energy sapping paths lead to quick burnouts and eventual disillusionment with the whole process

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2. ❝Branding is important❞

Pi Patel was born with the name Piscina Molitor Patel, given by his uncle after a swimming pool in France.

This name obviously caused him lot of anguish as everyone started making fun of his name at school and outside. Pi had to work hard on a rebranding exercise.

He realised early, that his name can cause him more pain, going ahead in life.

At first, he tried to work on individuals, and later started addressing groups about his name being derived from the Greek letter Pi which is ratio of a circle's circumference by diameter. But, it didn't work well for him.

So, he decided to remember the value of Pi expressed in several hundred decimal places to drive home the point.

Associating a story with the name made it work even better for him. So, if you have to work on creating a new brand name of changing your existing brand name for that matter, work on telling a good story which captures the imagination of the audience.

The story makes the brand name stick. And, as Pi Patel learnt it the hard way, rebranding can be a difficult and often expensive exercise.

So, if you inherit an unimaginative or not so great brand name, starting rebranding exercise early as Pi did really helps.
Come to think of it, if the book or movie title was Life Of Piscine Molitor, it may not have worked that well.

Choosing a good brand name could be your first step towards creating a successful brand.
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3. ❝Having a plan is essential, not optional❞

When Pi was thrown into the sea on the lifeboat with limited stock of resources after his ship capsized, he had to make a plan to survive the uncertain and indeterminate period in the harsh seas.
Fortunately, he found a handbook to help him plan for the time on the lifeboat.

If you're an entrepreneur, think of the handbook as your business plan. It's important to keep it handy and work according to the plan and of course, keep referring to it, when you're in doubt and monitor progress as you go along.

Probably, the most important resource for an entrepreneur is money and in the beginning, when income is low and uncertain, an entrepreneur needs to make sure, the money (resources) lasts till revenues kick in or next round of funding (help) comes in the choppy waters of entrepreneurial journey.

In life also, continuous planning for different stages of your life, and not only during the difficult days, when resources are low, will help you live a good life.

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4. ❝Don't put all your eggs in one basket❞

When Pi found Richard Parker on the life boat, he got scared and threw all the supplies in the lifeboat to a makeshift raft and tied it to the life boat and decided to shift to the raft.

At that moment, it looked like the wise thing to do, without taking into consideration greater dangers, still unknown to him.

When the breaching whale appeared at night and upturned Pi's raft throwing all his supplies to the water, Pi realised, living with Mr Parker on the boat may be a better option.

While starting up, resources are typically scarce and it's important to guard them and stop leakages or losses.

It's good to have one secure base and address the market.

Entering unknown and uncharted territories without adequate research and throwing resources at the market and not protecting your own backyard could be a deadly mistake, few start-ups can afford.

Also, if you have limited resources and there are multiple products, fighting for the same resource, it's better to spread your resources across groups to reduce dependency on one product to succeed, which is a low probability in a highly uncertain start-up environment.

In life, whether you're investing for a secure and a better future, it's good to spread your resources across various available options.

For career improvements, consider skill enhancement and be aware of the job market realities and don't just tie yourself to your current company, to stay relevant in the long run.

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5. ❝Learn to co-exist❞

After the whale incident, Pi had to reconcile to the fact that he has to live with Mr Parker on the lifeboat, an idea, which he had been resisting so far.

As a first step, he decided to start communicating with Mr Parker and also set out marking their territories and setting some rules.

Having Mr Parker on board also kept him alert at all times. When
Mr Parker jumped in the waters of Pacific Ocean, looking for fish, Pi helped him to get on board and slowly, he started developing a bond with him.

Mr Parker is both a co-founder and a competitor for Pi in his entrepreneurial journey. An entrepreneur needs to co-exist with both.

With co-founders, it's important to communicate clearly, define roles and responsibilities and ensure that you don't encroach upon each other's spaces.

An entrepreneur needs to learn to co-exist with competition in the market.

Competition keeps him alert and on his toes. And it's important to keep the competition healthy and not indulge in unethical, dirty tactics in the market.

This may even mean, occasionally helping a competitor, while fiercely protecting your market share, if it helps the overall market grow.
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6. ❝Keep moving❞

When Pi reached the mysterious floating island of carnivorous algae inhabited by meerkats, it seemed like, he has reached an oasis of life with bountiful food, water and shelter.

But, it probably symbolises the idea of settling for something average when there could be something much better in store.

Covering the last mile is often the most difficult part of the journey, especially when your body and mind wants to give up.
Also, it could potentially be a dangerous compromise fraught with dangers, just like living in the island which turns carnivorous at night.

In life and business, it's important to keep moving and not get complacent with interim success, related to reaching some milestones.

It's important to keep an eye on the final destination.
Pi kept looking for signs like observing the meerkats running for high ground or finding the tooth inside the flower.

An entrepreneur also, has to keep his ears close to the ground and constantly keep evolving and updating his product by launching new versions or even launching new products to address new gaps in the market.

Sometimes, it may also mean, changing the business model or exiting the market, if the market dynamics necessitate such an action.
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7. ❝ Don't give up❞

Life Of Pi is a story of perseverance and a story of not giving up, even in the harshest of conditions.

Pi didn't give up hope and he kept moving. Whether it's the black sea or the dark clouds or the ominous waves or the hungry predator as company, Pi never gave up hope of survival.

Similarly, for an entrepreneur, it's important to remember, that the darkest days are not going to last. It's important, not to give up on your dreams and give up on life.

So, the days, when you are down and in state of despair and almost on the verge of giving up, you must remember, that this stage like everything else in life is only temporary and this too shall pass.

There are times, when it may seem like you have tried everything possible within your means and there is only a little more that you can do.

In those hours, it's important to remember, that there is someone watching out for you and you're not here without a reason.

There will always be some opportunities like the flying fish for food or rains for drinking water or the floating island for a bit of rest and respite, which will sustain you, till you reach the shores of success, provided you don't give up.

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Some people believe that relationships shouldn't need "work". Others appreciate  that  there can be difficult patches that require some delicate navigation. Sometimes outside circumstances can act to pull you and your spouse together, but often things can happen that propel you in opposite directions unless you work to prevent this effect.

Unfortunately, it is often the case that a couple does not realize at the time that they are drifting apart. It is only once they feel that they are living almost separate or parallel lives that they come to realize what has happened to their relationship. Then they find themselves asking, "Where did the love go?" or "what happened to us?"

If this has happened to you, then please be assured that you are not alone. Nor does it mean that you are forever stuck in a "loveless" relationship. It just takes a little bit of attention and focus to get your relationship back on track. Needles to say, the most important and vital starting point is that both parties should wish to "get back that loving feeling".

Where there is a will there is a way. This may sound like a cliché, but it is a very true fact of life. If you want something badly enough you will usually find a way in which to make it happen. In the case of a relationship between two parties, you need to both want it to work.

The most important thing is to get back into the frame of mind that you were in when you were first together and madly in love. This should be easy to do. Those were good times, happy times and held a high intensity of emotional impact. This means that they will be deeply etched in your subconscious mind.

The more emotional attachment you have to a situation, event or circumstance the more deeply it is recorded within your mind. This is why I say that these "falling in love" memories should be easy to recall.

When was the last time you sat down and intentionally reminisced (either alone or with your partner) over those times? When was the last time you pulled out your photographs from those times and smiled as you flicked through them? When was the last time you deliberately set up a "date night" with your spouse?

If you want to have a loving relationship, then you need to set your minds upon doing things together that are loving, and designed to regenerate the love in your relationship. It is also important to focus upon the things that you love in your partner instead of the things that you might find irritating.

This may sound very simple and in reality it is pretty obvious and straightforward. Sadly, though, few couples really focus upon doing these things and are then disappointed by the way in which their relationship drifts.

Hypnosis can also be very helpful when you want to relive the emotions that you have felt in the fast. With hypnosis you have access to your subconscious mind, which is the part of your mind where memories and their attached emotions are stored. You can with hypnosis deliberately recall those loving emotions and bring them into the forefront of your mind once more.

''Pankaj''

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You have certainly heard the expression many times, “You are what you eat.” Have you ever really thought about what it means?. And do you think about it when you’re making food choices? 

In some ways, we do become what we eat, literally. Have you ever seen an example of your blood plasma after eating a fast food hamburger?. What was previously a clear liquid becomes cloudy with the fat and cholesterol that’s absorbed from eating a high-fat hamburger.

And when you think about it, we also become what we don’t eat. When we switch from eating meat to a vegetarian based diet, we become less fat, less prone to many types of cancers. Our cholesterol can improve. When we’re leaner and eating fewer animal products, then many other health and fitness issues are reduced. The incidence of Type II diabetes is reduced. Blood pressure falls into normal ranges. When you’re healthier, you’re taking fewer medications. Even if you have a prescription drug benefit in your health plan, you’re still saving money with fewer co-payments on medications.

If you have a family history of high cholesterol or high blood pressure, then it’s particularly incumbent on you to revise your eating habits. Moving towards a more vegetarian diet has been shown statistically to reduce the incidence of so many of the diseases of industrialized countries. Vegetarians are statistically healthier than omnivorous persons; they’re leaner and live longer.

Isn’t it time to think about what you want to be and to eat accordingly?. Do you want to be sluggish and fat?. Do you want the risk that goes with eating animal products, with their high fat content?. Or do you want to look like and be what vegetarians are?. Leaner and fitter with a longer anticipated lifespan. It’s never too late to change what you’re doing and increase your chances for a longer, fitter life.   

:-By "Pankaj Gangwar"

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There r 2 major economies 2day in the world which are growing at a fast rate — India & China. In fact, both are being watched closely, and analysts predict that they will be the future economic super powers. There are varying reports as to who is outpacing the other.

Sadly though, there has been a negative side of this development as well: corruption and scandals are increasing alarmingly. And the magnitude of loot involved, as well as the large number of cases which are surfacing, makes one wonder what cost will society have to bear if unbridled corruption wreaks disaster on the development phenomenon. For, though scandals have been exposed and investigations are ordered, there has never been a single case of public money having been recovered. It is you and I who have to make good this loss to state exchequer by paying additional taxes.

 what is being witnessed in the last few months in India is unprecedented.  First, there was this Commonwealth Games scam (Rs. 15000 million or US $326 million), {Rs. 1300 Crore deficit for Commonwealth Games, taxpayers will Pay} followed by the biggest ever 2G Spectrum Scam (Rs. 1700000 million or US $ 38260 million). The list of recent spate of scams is long.

The deadliest cancer society is afflicted with today is corruption. If you it look up on Wikipedia, it describes the adjective form corrupt as ‘utterly broken’. That precisely describes the state of society as a result of this rotten practice by human beings the world over.

This is an attempt to reflect on the many dimensions of this pervasive hydra-headed monster. At the extreme inner core of this evil practice is the perverse desire of the individual for self-gratification borne out of extreme greed. The frustrating thought that it has not been controlled, let alone eradicated, even though it is projected to be unlawful and damaging to society, makes me sick.

Some possible explanations of how corruption took root can be in the following:

1. Insufficient earning making it difficult to earn a decent living and forcing people to seek illegal monetary favor
2. People expecting out of turn treatment in social, political and even commercial activity, thereby inducing person in position with gratification
3. Sections of society thinking they have what it takes to be above ordinary folk and displaying their wealth contemptuously to buy favors
4. Consumerism and materialism has fueled intense desire to acquire gadgets and goods even if not affordable within legitimate earning

Is acceptance of gratis without primary expectation for the same or working for it not corruption? Perceptions vary. If it is not, is there a dividing line between the two? Where does it lie?

The phenomenon leads to such weird psychological behavior that in a given environment, those indulging in such immoral practices often scoff at those who try to stay clean.

It is a sad commentary on this social menace that each individual is attempting to rob the other. For example, one person wants a trade license and he bribes or succumbs to bribe the officer; the officer in turn wants a driving license and he bribes or succumbs to the transport inspector and so on. One person needs a passport and is forced to pay bribe to an officer; the officer in passport wants a new electricity connection for his apartment and the engineer at Power Company forces a bribe on him. Cynics may argue that everything is balanced in the end, but there is high moral turpitude which is pervasive. Not many people can be thorough with compliance requirements regarding procedures. This is due to complicated laws and lack of transparency. Instead of using enforcement for guiding the gullible people, persons in administration use this to enforce their self-gratification demands at the cost of incomes to state from fines imposed. While governments, especially local governments get weaker and weaker financially, persons in position flourish. Instances are aplenty where persons in certain positions offer to help, in evasion of government dues, for self-gain.

Corruption has become completely institutionalized. Most public service departments have laid out arithmetical formulae for bribes from help seekers. The degree is rampant and alarming. The irony is there appears to be a sense of reconciliation — an acceptance of the phenomenon among citizens. So much so, contrary to times when bribe-seeking used to cause raised eyebrows and reactions, many seem to have accepted it as a fact of life. In fact, so ‘holistic’ is the refrain that people tend to certify some wrongdoers, arguing they ‘deliver’ even if they demand gratification in the process.

As far the different forms of corruption, institutions dealing with corruption and other facts about corruption, I find the Wikipedia page on Corruption quite informative.

Can we rid the ‘utterly broken’ behavior from society? Well, that means fight against might. I know of several non-governmental organizations’ crusades and limited success. Like me, many have short-sighted responses when it comes to action: why should it be me, when I know many others will not jump in and many a crusade has terminated in helplessness. I feel guilty and helpless at the same time.    :-By "Pankaj Gangwar"

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memory itself is a fiction: we are, second by second, in every moment of reflection, self-editing, reinventing, making ourselves up..' writes Sam Taylor in the disclaimer to 'The Amnesiac'. I picked this book on a whimsy. I was wandering through the aisles of the British Council Library in Connaugt Place, looking for a friendly name. I do not know a lot of British authors, I realized. The back cover had rave reviews. But then, every publication has to print all the praise it can gather to increase sales. Nevertheless, I brought it home. The cover said it was the journey of an amnesiac into his past: images from 'Ghajini' and 'Memento' flashed through my mind. I decided I could do with some mystery. And mystery, it delivered. The first fifty pages didn't impress me at all. The protagonist, James Purdew, breaks his ankle and is then dumped by his live-in partner after having spent weeks in useless isolation, thinking up the most abstract things. What a loser, I say to myself. He can't even pay the rent. It was after his girlfriend had vacated their apartment that he shows the first signs of human emotion and embarks on a mission to reclaim himself. This, he begins by reading through the diaries he had kept through the years. This is where it gets interesting. James Purdew does not remember anything about his three years in University. The diaries he kept of that time are locked in a safe and he has lost the key. Taylor makes it clear here that these three years were the definitive years of his life. They contained the key to his present state and personality. 

This is where I put down the book, gaze into nothingness and wonder. What if something like this ever happens to me? We take memory for granted. We do not realize how utterly lost we would be without it. My emotions, opinions and general behaviour towards anything/anyone is based on my past experiences- memories. Imagine a scenario where you just can't decide how to react to a particular thing/person from your past. Worse, imagine a scenario where your body finds a way of reaction, but your mind just cannot figure it out.It is now that my opinion of the character changes. I feel sympathetic towards him. I also begin to admire his courage for going back to try and reclaim the lost years. I feel a little apprehensive for him too- what if the past held a secret so terrible that it would break him? What if he had deliberately, consciously erased those years? 

Undaunted, Purdew moves to the city he went to University in and starts putting the pieces together.But, no, this is not what the books is about. Within a span of a hundred and fifty pages, Taylor has turned this book into a murder mystery where our amnesiac, Purdew, plays detective. Throw in a student suicide, flashbacks of a beautiful dark-haired girl and a crazy neuroscientist/pyschologist and we have a page-turner. The thing I liked the most about this book is that it relates so much to my sense of being. Taylor's characters, plot, setting- all seem too real. Reading this book was equivalent to watching a Christopher Nolan movie, if mindfuck is what we're talking about. There are even mysterious looking green pills, hallucinations and suspected time-travel. 

Talking of movies, combine 'Fight Club', 'Memento' and 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind' and you might be able to get a grip on what this book is all about. But, then, Purdew is too real to be just a movie character or a fiction book person. James Purdew is a person with a terrible past and a terrible memory of that past. Other than that, James Purdew could be anyone. He could be me or you. 

The book is written in a clever and fresh style. You would feel like you've cracked the great mystery many times while reading through the memoirs. But, unless you really are Sherlock, be ready for a surprise. Until then, I'm sitting down to fill a notebook with whatever my memory serves me up with. 

'What changes is not the color of the canal, but the perspective of the person who looks at it.'

             :-written by "PANKAJ GANGWAR"

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Tujhe Fursat Hi Nahi Mili Kabhi Humko Padhne Ki,

Aur Hum Bikte Rahe Kitabo Ki Tarah Tere Shahar Mein

yunhi panne palat kar hi dekh liya hota,

hum bikhre rahe surkh patton ki tarah tere shahar me

Purane ho chale ek din aur mile raddi ke dher mein,

panne bhikhar gaye zindagi ki kitab ke, phir tere shahr mein

Zindagi Humari Tere Liye, Ek Khuli Kitab Thi,

Kora Kaagaz hi reh gaye alfaaz, bus tere shahar mein

Akhiri Panne Pe Rakha, Sookha Gulab Tha,

Panne Nahi Palte Gaye Uss Kitab Ke,

Tu Phir Bhi Na Samajh Saki, Dastak Ko Meri,

Hum Aaye the Alvida Kehne Tere Hi Shahar Mein

Tujhe Fursat Hi Nahi Mili Kabhi Humko Padhne Ki,

Aur Hum Bikte Rahe Kitabo Ki Tarah Tere Shahar Mein

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This is a story 8 years back…!

The relationship which lost their track..!

With every incident that happened is there in the memory,

Oh don’t be anxious you have to go only with summary…!!

Taking you to the summer of 2006

When their friendship had just fixed….!!

Both of them were then in class 9,

When everything was going fine…!!

Hi, hello were the normal introduction,

Before the feelings for others were fixed in connection..!!

The closeness in their friendship grew,

And all set, others started gossiping, sometimes taking interview…!!

Every set of season came and went,

But their friendship never came to an end!!

Finally it was year 2007,

When they think, their friendship is far beyond heaven…!!

They starting sharing too many dreams,

Sealed with lots of promises which never steamed!!   

Then one day happened something bad,

For which both of them became sad,

Day by day everything went askew,

Problems were apparently, but the separation grew!!

And just like that, the communication was broken,

“Just get lost” the last words were spoken….!!

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Why do I do this to myself?

Why do I listen to songs that remind me of you when the only thing I should be doing is forgetting you?

When my heart is too numb to be capable of love or anything like it, why are you tempting and testing me?

It takes a toll when you know what you want could destroy you. Break you into pieces and leave you lying there, unable to ever fix yourself. But without it, you're always aching for something.

It takes everything I have to be able to see you and talk to you like I used to while I die a little on the inside.

Sometimes I think that I like the ache in my heart when it knows that its lost the battle with my mind. To be able to look back and say, "That's life - you can't have your cake and eat it."

You're no piece of cake. But thats why you mean so much, don't you?

You're my drug. The drug that I'm trying to quit. I will probably quit. But for now, I'm still high on you.

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True love comes only once in a lifetime

yet it lasts an eternity

It has the power to crush someone so deeply

while at the same time they know 

there’s no one else in the world they’d rather be with

True love will knock down the walls of difficulty 

to be with that special one

It will take your hand and fly over the world 

into a place where there’s no pain, no tears

True love will withstand the test of time,

forever waiting until its love is returned

It never fails, never dies, never lets go of the one they 

love.

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The rain is falling hard.

I wonder if I'm ever going to get free from this pain.

The one I love has left.

Wondering if he will ever come back.

Every night and everyday...

I think about him,

Wishing for him to come back.

Wondering if he is thinking about me.

He will come back.

Cause I love him and he loves me.

Very soon...

Very soon... 

 

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Love me in the Springtime, when all is green and new,

Love me in the Summer, when the sky is oh so blue,

Love me in the Autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,

Love me in the Winter, when the snow is falling down.

Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad,

Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad,

Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain,

Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain.

Love me always darlin', in the rain or shining sun,

Love me always darlin', after all is said and done,

Love me always darlin', until all our life is through,

Love me always darlin', for I'll be lovin' you!  

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Honey,

if love comes in colors,

I choose blue,

if love comes in flowers,

I’ll choose rose,

if love comes in songs,

I’ll think of choosing blues,

But if love should come in human beings,

I’ll definitely not think twice before

I’ll choice you!

because.....You are my choice

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The things I've done, I can't explain.

I know because I know it hurts and causes pain.

I can't say I didn't know what I was doing.

I don't know what I was thinking or what I was proving.

We had a special love but I threw it all away.

I regret what I've done every second of the day.

If I could change the past believe me I would.

I would take away all the pain, if only I could.

So, now, all I can ask for is one last try

I'll love you until the day I die.

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I don’t need the compass to find you

your heart beat would lead my way.

I don’t need the sun to find you 

your smile would light my way.

I don’t need the ocean to find you

my tears would wash my way.

I don’t need the wind to find you

your voice would whisper my way.

I don’t need the moon to find you

your eyes would shine my way.

But, if I never find my way I would perish....

my soul would find its way...

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